If you’re like me, you have a funny relationship with pregnancy tests.
There’s a period in your life where taking one is accompanied by a whole lot of finger crossing and wishing you’d kept your legs crossed…
…and another when taking one is accompanied by equally fervent finger crossing, but also a sense of excitement, hope—and at times—desperation.
My husband and I have wanted to have another baby since Cub turned one, but my menstrual cycle didn’t return til he was 20 months old. (Appropriately, on Mother’s Day.) Obviously I knew it was still possible for me to conceive, so every once in a while I’d treat myself to a Dollarama pregnancy test.
For me, buying a $2 pregnancy test is like spending a toonie on a scratch ticket: it might be a waste of two bucks, but it’s worth it for the chance to dream while you’re peeing (or scratching.)
Why am I talking about this right now? Well, because it’s a couple days before I’m supposed to get my period, and I’ve been feeling a bit off all week. Naturally, I keep thinking I might be pregnant. Just like my scratch ticket is either a winner or not, no matter the order in which I scratch the little boxes, I realize I’m either pregnant, or I’m not. No amount of wishing will change that! I have to keep reminding myself that I’m probably not pregnant. I keep calculating when I might possibly have conceived, and if that seems right from an ovulation standpoint, and if my symptoms really could mean I’m pregnant… when I found out I was pregnant with Cub I had a persistent cold (probably unrelated), so now I have a sore throat… a sign? I also had to pee all the time… and I’ve been peeing a lot this week, but I’ve also been drinking a ton of water…
So I know there are tests that claim accuracy even 5 days before your expected period… but they also explain (in fine print) that accuracy is at about 50% when you take them early. Also, let’s face it, those tests cost at least $15 a pop, and I’m a cheapskate…
…So I’m waiting. I doubt I’ll be able to hold off much beyond the weekend, but I think I’ll pick up a pregnancy test and a scratch-and-win ticket. Hopefully at least one of them will have me getting lucky!
[I was planning to publish this either 3 months after a positive test result or immediately after a negative…. but, no test needed… this Mama ain’t a Mama-of-two this month. On the bright side, I have some Mama Cloth to review!]
Also, this happened: